There are situations in life in which we find ourselves at a crossroads, or to situations in which the logic does not prevail. Moments in which we do not understand the development of the facts, because they lack wisdom.
One of those facts, is to feel this in the middle of the absence. An absence more painful than for deceased loved ones, because they are the hope of returning to see the day when Jesus returns to judge and reign. However, your absence will not have those features of messianic joy, because even having you so close and present, are at once so far and so absent, that lack of logic I was referring when he spoke of facts without wisdom. Even though
is true that in prayer and personal encounter with Jesus, I have improved too much and understand many things, there is always that strange sensation that has no words, nouns and adjectives that can be defined. This unexpected end, the conclusion of the act is not yet finished when the arguments in this book, is what makes me thirst, that sea of \u200b\u200bdoubt, that do not quite understand clearly, and I can only try to infer the answers because I have not heard from your own lips, and the sad thing is that I think I will never listen.
powerlessness that is generated in me, when writing these lines, I was reminded of the potential near zero, once you read this note. More, however, the want to write because they are also a means to liberate, to break ties, to allow attachment and to let you go. I am now more beautiful than ever, safer and more mettle, I do not know if that silly play that makes us men our mind whenever we finished an even loving. You already could you turn the page and dare to be happy again, hopefully with a gentleman who makes you happy, and I ask God every night you are in my prayers, he is witness to everything I've talked to him, everything I've asked for you and your family, and also what I have begged to let me leave to go, you know? I think I heard and slowly I realize that he is at work, still I love you, but it does not hurt, still I love you but I do not cry (except when writing this note), still I love you but I also want to be happy and still I love you and do not quite understand what happened.
What happened, where the plans have changed, where it vanished planned future together, where was that we loved each other for life, where was the'll always love and do not hesitate, where was the little and tiny and what it hurts more when it vanished Valentina Paola and Juan Pablo. You once told me that in my eyes you saw the future, a family, home and kids, and you know that you not only what you saw, I did so depraved and even still I see, so I have not dared to find someone, because even though this has long past, the feeling remains the same in me, but as I said, no more pain, resignation and acceptance is something that could not be and that is my love in a vegetative state and taciturn.
I confess one thing, this hit in my life was reaffirmed and strengthened my faith, I got face to face with God, we have spoken as ever, I cried with him, and although many people point out and criticize me, but God I sense his presence and even as I had once gave me spanking as a parent do when consoling a child, has shown me the plan he has for me, and it is not easy in this plan that also showed me you were, but the circumstances and made our mistakes and it does not come with me That makes the hard way, to fulfill God's plan, back on track and continue the fight for him, but without you baby. And what I do because I can not let God, who has been so merciful to me and I have so many signs that do not listen. How I wish that those who do not believe you, Lord, or who are lukewarm to you, you could feel, see and hear as I have done this last year. So I thank you Lord, because Through my sadness I did this and realized that sometimes you Lord, you allow situations to happen in our lives, we hit hard, we lie face down as you did with Paul, as a direct path to conversion, but it is in everyone understand it or let it go. Gold
you and I will touch until I leave this life, and everything left in the hands of the Lord and trust Him, He will work and what He will allow to pass, so soon for me to ask continue to give strength and the will and resilience that I often kick my human weakness. Finally
tell you baby, that if God let me be born again and tell me all the pain that was coming to finish you, I assure you, He and I have a witness, who, like you would choose again, because for those 5 years I spent with you happiness, worth notwithstanding any stronger pain whatsoever. God richly bless you and keep you always, to be happy but not me, I love you and love you forever, I'm sure if I have to follow the path as I said, you're always in my prayers, my memories and my blood runs through my body every time my heart beats thinking about you. Cheer up baby, cause so many successes deserve for what you have suffered. If we ever meet, I hope that we can look without any bill, without any bad memories, no more tears. Goodbye my baby, my baby, my old lady, my charramanduca, my true love, the mother of my children. As I want to show you this, what I feel, not just letters on paper, are feeling overwhelmed, poured from my soul and everything belongs to you and only you, and to return that way again, but this time back together. But I think it will not happen and I resigned and I accepted.
now my turn to be happy and begin to move that kind of transition between the way that I said God and the place where I am now, things are giving a bit to make it happen, so here I go, to further develop professional and also meet the plan of God. No arms will cross the face of difficulties, because the best man in the world died with open arms in a cross for me and for all.
When the soul speaks to God is silent to hear the purest sample of love in a human being, and my soul spoke. (Jesus Romero 03/02/2010 4:54 a.m.)
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